metal&gin | (a weblog by craig t mackenzie)

things are not so great.

since railsconf a lot has come to my attention in professional life, my working life. things which have had an effect on me, my faith in people and my ability to commit.

i’ve been thinking an awful lot lately, and i think the time has come for me to take a serious look at my career, and make some important decisions.

at the moment i don’t feel like i’m happy. if ruby has taught me only one thing, it’s that happiness is more important than money, deadlines, clients, bosses and commitment. if a person doesn’t feel happy doing what they do, they shouldn’t do it.

the problem in my situation is that it wasn’t always this way. the company i work for has some brilliant people, and i have been happy here for so long now. but recently the happiness has dropped dramatically and in the name of staying true to myself i have to make some difficult choices.

the downward spiral to all of this is complicated, and i’ll spare you the specifics, suffice to say that appreciation, and a fair workload, with realistic expectations and fair rewards are factors which have been below par for a long time, with no immediate sign of improvement.

so here i am, the eve of turning 21, about to change my life?
time will tell.